9.14.2020

Waking up in Bladerunner. San Francisco. California. 9.9.2020.



Last Wednesday I woke up to my alarm at my usual 7:40AM. It was very disorienting as there was an orange glow permeating through the blinds. Upon opening the blinds, I realized it was entirely orange outside.


I felt like K waking up in his apartment in Bladerunner 2049. It was also very disorienting as the orange lingered and I had to turn on the lights during the day due to the darkened skies. Day felt like night with an eerie orange glow.

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10:45AM. San Francisco. 9.9.2020.

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It was around 11AM that it got even darker and that was when I decided I need to go outside and walk a block to capture this below as I will likely and hopefully never see this again in my lifetime despite the terrible air quality.


Friends of mine from elsewhere thought I Photoshopped the orange into these photos. It wasn't until they saw Obama's post of images in the SF Chronicle that they then realized that I in fact did not and sent me messages from all over.

Climate change is real. How are you being more green? Please vote to elect officials in that will work toward preserving our world rather than personal interests.





6.03.2020

Race in America. San Francisco. California. 6.3.2020.


Shirien Damra.

Black Lives Matter
National Resource list #GeorgeFloyd+
NAACP
Split a donation between 70+ community bail funds, mutual aid funds, and racial justice organizers
Black-owned restaurants in the Bay Area
The 13th by Ava DuVernay
How to be an Antiracist by Ibram X Kendi
What I Said When My White Friend Asked For My Black Opinion On White Privilege by Lori Lakin Hutcherson
Privilege/Class/Social Inequalities Explained in a $100 Race
PBS | Frontline | A Class Divided
VOTE THEM OUT in November. Every single last one of them.

Like most people, I have been spending a lot more time as of late pondering race and privilege in America currently. The story of Ahmaud Arbery really shook me: how is it possible that we are in 2020 and we have white men murdering a black man on a run in broad day light? I was talking to a friend about it that weekend and he said, "And this is what you hear about. Imagine how many more doesn't even get written up?"

Hell.

Then Breonna Taylor. Then Christian Cooper. Then George Floyd. And how many more we haven't heard about in the news?

I moved to Oakland in 1987 as a Chinese immigrant with a British accent. That was my first exposure to black people as Hong Kong is extremely culturally monogamous. You cannot help but notice the racial tension in Oakland in the 80s and through the 90s, as it was predominately lower and working class black and I have not lived in the best parts of Oakland mostly. In fact, when I grew up in Oakland it was one of the most violent cities in America. There was plenty of police brutality in Oakland in addition to the rampant racial profiling, and even as a 10 year old I recognized all that. I remember the Rodney King riots in 1992 and the looting that followed in Oakland. Granted, I was only 15 at the time so I didn't quite understand what that actually meant. I also lacked emotional and intelligence intelligence at that young age to be able to comprehend the events.

While I have experienced discrimination as a minority female throughout my life in various forms, I can say with conviction that not once have I feared for my life, and especially not when I am dealing with authority figures. Which is clearly not the case for people that are black. This is why we are having this discussion. I have black friends and I did not understand the burden that they carry on a daily basis. When I really sat with this in the recent months, it makes me incredibly sad and angry that this is still happening in this day and age, and in some instances, encouraged. How is it even an option that violence or murder is encouraged or justified to those that are not a threat to you? How can anyone be so callous and shoot anyone, and due to the color of their skin? How is this different than when the Mayflower came filled with white pilgrims and they took over this land from the indigenous people and drove them out? How is this that much different really than the black slaves that arrived in 1619? How is it still possible that America is still taking advantage of the black communities that built this country up (literally) with their blood, sweat, tears and endless abuse?

Racism does not exist without white privilege. Because you are more likely able to get away with the murder of a black person if you are white, which history has proven repeatedly since the arrival of slaves on this land. Which now brings us to Amy Cooper, the white woman who claimed a black man is threatening her life when calling the NYPD while in fact he was telling her to leash her dog in an effort to protect the natural habitat while bird watching. Had Christian Cooper not taken the video of the entire ordeal, his name may also end in tragedy in the third paragraph above. That is the ultimate white privilege power move: a white woman not wanting to abide by the rule and instead calls the police on a black man claiming he is threatening her life and putting on an act lying about it. She knew exactly how to work the race card to her advantage in this situation with malicious intent.


Brittainy Newman. New York Times.

I have witnessed a fair share of white privilege in my days. I have been questioning 2 incidences in particular where 3 white women thought it was acceptable to invite and/or book themselves on trips I had planned for myself for years. I used to think that was because they have terrible etiquette. Because who invite/book themselves on someone else's holiday without asking if that is ok and then vilify you and lash out when you tell them that you did not invite them? Now I wonder if it's also white privilege that emboldened them to feel this entitlement and to not bother to apologize for these invasive actions. One of them half heartedly said, "I am so sorry things got so fucked up," before she lashed out of course.

I digress...

Then you have Breonna Taylor and George Floyd who were clearly peaceful, yet both were killed by the police separately. How is it that law enforcement get so many passes when there are clearly problem individuals? How are you protecting and serving when you are taking the lives of lawful individuals? And how convenient for them that they all happen to be white men?


To not be angry at the injustice would be immoral. Hence the global protests. Sadly, with protests you always have trouble makers, be it the right winged trying to take away from the peaceful protests or the authorities that use unnecessary force and tactics  to "contain" the situation and to instigate a riot. Protesters are protesters, and opportunistic individuals with a different agenda should never be confused with protesters. Sadly, sometimes these opportunistic individuals are police or law enforcement officers.

On Saturday 5.30.2020, I stumbled upon the peaceful protest demanding justice for George Floyd on Market Street in San Francisco. I normally am a protester myself, but due to the fact that I am immune compromised in the time of COVID-19, I have to participate and cheer from the sidewalk instead. It was a peaceful protest during the day and I saw beginning to end the thousands of people that marched.














Images above by Beth Thomas.

I was walking around to take inventory of what has changed downtown afterwards, since this has become a new hobby of mine since the lock down mid March. In fact, I recall some of the high end shops removing all their merchandise as early as 3.14.2020 and many stores have followed suit afterwards. It was until this weekend that stores started to restock their inventory and remove the boards in getting ready for curb side pick ups and for in store sales in 2 weeks. I was chatting with Daniel, the security guard at Cartier, about all this as Coach was redoing all their window displays and restocking their store. Dior was just in the process of reputting back up the boards that they had just removed. Dolce & Gabbana was fully restocked and boards moved. I even had walked by the Swarovski store to marvel at all their glass windows with full merchandise on display...






Apple Store.


Apple Store detail.


Swarovski.
















Dolve & Gabbana detail.




Christian Louboutin.


Christian Louboutin.


Acne Studios.




Bottega Veneta.




Saint Laurent.


All Saints.




Old Navy.

Union Square is 2 blocks from my apartment. I was taking a bath Saturday past 10PM when I heard a good amount of fireworks go off. Soon after, it sounded like a war zone filled with sirens, helicopters, gunshots, yelling, screeching, and explosions. That's when I knew the looting had begun. Speaking of opportunists, let us not confuse these looters from the protesters earlier in the day. I saw the footage (start at 1:10:50) of the looting myself and this was definitely not even close to the same crowd I saw peacefully protesting in the day. These were premeditated looters that came in with all the tools: hammers, electric saws, jackhammer, wooden planks, cinder blocks, guns, bats, etc. In fact, they broke through the extra thick bullet proof glass at Tourbillon and got the watches. They also came with their SUVs and trucks to hull it all away and quickly. What I saw Sunday morning at 8:30AM was only a single necklace left on a Dolce & Gabbana mannequin from the fully merchandised store I witnessed the afternoon before. The looting last for at least 4 hours as I was unable to sleep with all the ruckus, and it was also on my block at one point. They even looted the liquor store half a block from my apartment as you can see below.



What was the most surprising to me was that they broke into a building on Grant Ave in Chinatown a few blocks up in addition to a few jewelry stores there. My friend and I walked past the building as they were boarding up the front door. The tenants were outside talking about how the looters broke through and assaulted them and they got robbed. I was not crazy about that as my building also has a glass front door.







I have been talking to friends lately as we have been checking on each other to see how we are all doing throughout all this and our feelings about racial injustice. It has been a perfect storm to bring us to this point. The collective mourning and anger we have been feeling has been built up from the creation of America and not just from recent events with 400 years of oppression in various forms. I really wish that the history books would be rewritten so we can all be more aware of this and from a different point of view than white male historians. I am no expert on American history, in fact, I fell asleep in ALL my history classes throughout school. But I do read up on it on my own and educate myself when I have interest in specific subjects. Last night I forced myself to watch The 13th on Netflix. This articulated the suppression of blacks in America in such an intelligent way that it will break your heart, as it certainly broke mine. I am really tired of all the tears for all this. Aren't you?


Patricia Chang. SF Gate.

5.17.2020

A few of my favorite books.

Since we are currently finding ourselves with more times indoor and in solitude, I decided to make another list of my favorite books after making ones for my favorite foreign films and animes. I am quite a voracious reader and sometimes I finish a book in a day. I definitely read quite a lot of dystopian series. Regardless, perhaps this will give you some ideas. This ought to keep you busy for a while.


The Night Circus. Erin Morgenstern.
This is currently my favorite book of all time. It's filled with magic and ethereally beautiful. I loved reading this before going to bed as I would get the dreamiest visuals in dreamland. I loved this book so much that I actually looked into acquiring the movie rights because I would be thoroughly heart broken if this were not done to perfection. Sadly it was already purchased.


Throne of Glass Series. Sarah J. Maas.
Currently I am really enjoying all the books by Sarah J. Maas. This one follows a mysterious assassin as she wins the title of the king's assassin and her journey across kingdoms to eventually revealing her true identity.


A Court of Thorns and Roses Series. Sarah J. Maas.
I just reread all 4 books of this series this past weekend. I might actually like it even better than the Throne of Glass series. It's like reading a very grim fairy tale. It makes me laugh out loud and fall in love with a lot of the characters. If you know a real life Rhysand and age appropriate for me, I am single. I typically date real life versions of him, so it's not that different than my usual.


Penryn & The End of Days Series. Susan Ee.
This is the end of the world taking place in the Bay Area with some cameos that you will recognize. One of the protagonists is an atheist archangel. Laugh out loud funny many times over. No pandemic in this one, just normal end of the world stuff.


Chaos Walking The Complete Trilogy. Patrick Ness.
This is a very enjoyable series and very unusual. Patrick Ness has a way of diving deep into the emotional aspects of human nature and I enjoy his books for this reason. This is a world where there is no more women and men's intimate thoughts are readily hearable to all around them instead of kept silent in their heads. Naturally, a boy meets a girl and the story unfolds.


The Mortal Instruments. Cassandra Clare.
Shadowhunters, vampires, werewolves, faeries, and a few other otherworldly creatures on earth and in between worlds fighting for power. Why was the movie so painfully bad? I actually saw it in the theatre. Back when we can go to theatre of course... This is a super fun series. If you enjoy it, I also recommend the prequel series The Infernal Devices and the sequel The Dark Artifices.


Shatter Me series. Tahereh Mafi.
This is another fun dystopian series with humans discovering their powers. Right now I am on Imagine Me and I believe there will be at least one more book. All the novellas are also fun as well.


The Picture of Dorian Gray. Oscar Wilde.
One of my favorites of all time.
Behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something tragic.
-Oscar Wilde


Pride and Prejudice. Jane Austen.
There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of merit or sense.
-Elizabeth Bennet


Crime and Punishment. Fyodor Dostoyevsky.
Throughout my teens, this was one of my favorite books (sans epilogue). I was also a nihilist existentialist at the time.
Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.
-Fyodor Dostoyevsky.


The Stranger. Albert Camus.
Speaking of existentialism. I am not even sure how many copies of this book I own, but I had quite a collection. I think I scared away a few guys when they would come over and see my bookcase and get really intimidated. Amongst all the existentialists, Camus remains my favorite. Then I saw a picture of him dancing. The joy! One of the greatest beginnings of any book I have ever read:
Maman died today. Or yesterday maybe, I don't know.